an intro of sorts

it's been two years and almost five months.
since what you ask?
well -- since the obvious of course. =)

obvious to me anyways. haha.
two years and five months me and my girl have been dating.

and in those two-ish years -- i have never been good at introducing her to people.
and apparently i've only ever mentioned her three times on this blog.

what was i thinking?!

here goes:
her name (which i love) - is Jolynn Spyker
Spyker - seriously - freakin awesome last name.
most beautiful person i know and bestest of friends ever.

we met at the northview young adults back when it was called "inextreme"
and the cliche of "love at first sight" sure happened - for me at least.
i think she was thinkin... well - not what i was thinking. haha.
hope i remembered that right. =P
then i went away for the summer to camp tulahead.
i was thinking of going to Regina for a week or moving back to kamloops
but i got stuck in abbotsford - and i guess that wasn't such a bad idea after all. =P

heck yes!

getting there

i just changed the look of my blog again.
i got sick of trying to mess around with the code and everything.
so i went and used a template - i quite like it - few things to add yet.
but i'll get to that at a later date.

for now - i'm content.
content... for now.

my head's all jumbled at the moment - so i'll have to come back later.
until then - enjoy the new look.

and so it begins

so i've made some adjustments to the blog.
i hope you like it - i'm not totally satisfied with it yet.

but i'll leave it for now.
i like the title though. haha.
that's really all i wanted done.
and to clean up the right bar.

speaking of bars.
i hope one day that i will live in a house
that has a basement - and a room
that is dedicated to having a bar and a pool table.
that would be freakin awesome. haha.

well people (for those that read this even)
it's almost april.
april is a good month for me.
three pay cheques.
moving to abbotsford.
seeing old friends and fam again.
it's gonna be great. 
i am so freakin excited. haha. 

but for now - i'll give you this little treat
a video i love.
i get so excited about longboarding each
and every time i see it. haha.
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simply beautiful.

here's a whopper... want fries with that?

check this out.

living on my own... i'm a messy person.

yeah - my desk is covered in junk.

half the floor's covered in clothes.

hah - clothes i rarely wear - so they just end up staying there.

waiting to be stepped over.

and dishes.

yeah - so i tend to pile up on the dishes.

oh - dont worry - they have their own spot where they go when i'm done with them.

so this one week - i let it pile up more than i should have.

it was a busy week! honestly.

middle of the week comes - wednesday - the day i picked to do my dishes.

and what do i come home to?

my room has been emptied of my dishes.

wait - hold on there - not just dishes though.

pop cans. an empty peanut butter jar.

and dishes. yeah i think that's all there was.

oh it gets better - dont worry.

so i go downstairs and... oh! my dishes!

sitting there... on the kitchen counter... 

i was like... what the heck?

who has the indecency to go into my room.

yeah - into my room. without me knowing. at all.

to get my dishes? (and not just my dishes remember?)

who does that?
to top it off - this rude person takes my dishes out of my room..

and sets them on the kitchen counter - and when i get home - asks me "do you mind doing your dishes?"

who in their right fracking mind does that?

if you have the frickin impoliteness and indecency to go into my room - into my room - and grab my dishes

and put them on the kitchen counter - you better do those damn dishes your freakin self.

honestly i just dealt with it and did my dishes anyway.

"but there were no dishes in the kitchen, so all i could do was go into your room"

i'm sorry... what?

i did not have every single damn dish in my frickin room.

wash a dirty one and use that - text me, call me - wait for me to get home at least.

dont go into my room without my permission (which i wouldn't give anyways)

to get some dishes (which honestly, weren't that many) - set them on the counter

then proceed to ask me to do my dishes and top it off with the cherry of "oh, could you scrub those before putting them in the dishwasher? thanks"

hahaha.

i look back and laugh at that now.

so funny.

like... honestly. who the heck does that?

i live the most like a bachelor out of the three that live in this house... 

and i'm the only one NOT single... take that one home and chew on it.

meh. stuff happens.

live with it - ya move on.

live a little more free.

don't be stuck up.

honestly - it's no fun.

rule #32 - enjoy the little things.

tired as...zzz

for once one of the titles of my posts might actually coincide with what the content of the post is.

fancy that eh?

yeah - i'm tired. 

been tired.

was tired.

bah. sleep is overrated.

nah. i just tell myself that so i have an excuse to stay up late.

which, well, since i have three days off in a row now - i'm allowed to do that.

i'm good with that.

get to talk with jo at these late hours. =)

although, at the moment, she's hangin out with her room-mate.

know my answer to that?

you got it!

i stay up later. haha.

this house is dead quiet though.

huge house.

three floors.

five bedrooms.

four-ish bathrooms.

hot tub and sauna in the basement.

a hot tub that isn't working at the moment.

since november.

damn slackers.

had the money to buy the place - better have money to maintain it. haha.

oh well - not my house.

glad for that.

ah it's been a lovely time here.

but it's about time to go. 33 days left to go until i move back to abbotsford.

i am freakin excited. you have no idea.

mainly cause i dont show it on the outside so much.

know what?

you buy such a damn big house - you have people over every night to hang out.

got a freakin hot tub - and dont invite people over?

what the frick is that all about?

three people live here.

i've given up on trying to hang out with people here.

sorry kamloops - can't stand it here any longer.

love you all though.

dont forget that.

i'm just not used to your lifestyle.

looks like the title only fit for a little while.

go figure.

renovations will begin after these messages...

haha.

looking at the main page of this blog... and i see alot of it

needs to be cleaned up.

i'll have to deal with that this weekend.

shut it. or eat a donut.

hey.

i've noticed - after looking over all my previous posts
that i've become very bitter since moving to this city.

and i havn't the slightest idea why.

please, help me if you can.

i'm moving back to my home town at the end of april.

i suspect things will get better from here on out.

exciting news coming within a months time!

more on that later - but not next post.

where in the world?

ok. so i still dont really know what i want to do with my life.
i mean. i really want to be close to God. but it's hard.
hard because i get distracted.
distracted with friends and music and video games.
yeah i'm a game nerd. so what. hah.

i really would love to do stuff with music.
i love playing guitar.
but at the moment - it just seems i've hit a wall.
like, i've learned what i've learned - how can i learn more?
i know i can learn more. just dont know where to go from... well, here.
if you will.
am i too old to take guitar lessons?
what about piano lessons? i'd love to do that.
i'm debating whether or not to buy a harmonica.
i think i will just for the heck of it. for fun.

but where do i go from here?
my conclusion is that of going to school for something.
i know i wont be any good to play music at any coffee shop.
not any time soon. so i'll keep playing and learning still,
but that's not where i want my focus to be at the moment.

i already know which school i want to apply for.
my mom doesn't really agree at all with my decision
but that's not stopping me from doing what i want to do.
see now that just sounds so selfish and mean. hah.
it's not. it's a matter of me wanting to do what i want for a living,
rather than wearing myself out doing something i abhor for a living.
maybe not abhor - but not enjoy at any rate.

that brings up the question - do we as kids absolutely have to do
everything that our folks tell us to?
or is there a "within reason" thrown in there somewhere?
i'd like to think there is.
maybe scripture tells us differently.
but apparently i havn't cared to look that up.
i should sometime.

i really miss reading scripture.
really the only thing i miss about being at my mom's place with my dad there.
always read the scriptures almost every night.
maybe at the time i didn't really care for it a whole lot.
but i learned lots. and it stuck with me.
but now i've forgotten so much.

all over the place tonight.. this morning..
whatever you want to call it.
seems i've left this open for something.
we'll see.
maybe i'll expand later on.
just what was on my mind at the moment.
spur of the... well you get the picture.

good night

whatever happens... happens.

normal it is. by ruling of the jury.
no jury today. sorry.
wait.. what?

ok so here's the scoop.
take it and eat it.
unless you dont like ice cream? i like it.

alright alright i'm just foolin around.
deal with it.
or not. your choice.

but i need a second job.
dont see how anyone survives by just working at walmart.
these people that work there for twenty years. heck. even two years is too much at walmart.
if you get an hourly wage - you only get between a twenty and forty cent raise.
each year.
so let's say you start out at $9.50/hr - after twenty years - you will be getting paid $17.50/hr

so far as i know anyways.
you get bumped up to a department manager - that's a forty cent raise.

ugh.
just rediculous.
you think these people would learn after a year of working there.
quit your job. go to school. find a new job. voila!

that's what i'll be doing.
work for at least a year. get married. then go to school.
that is the extent of my long term plan.

how's that for a scoop of cookie dough?
(no pun intended)

peace

small or normal font? hmmm.

i am freakin tired right now. not as tired as other times i've been freakin tired. but i'm freakin tired.
enough with the freaks now.

Jesus freak? sure. why not.
but that's it. leave it.

so - to be honest.
the summer's been pretty boring without Jo around.
yeah sure i havn't really worked up any motivation to do anything on my part either.
but i guess i didn't do too much of the whole 'carpe diem' deal this summer.
still doesnt mean it wasn't boring.
sure i visited Jo a couple times - me going down there - and her coming up to the loops.
that was good - that wasn't boring.
but i'm gettin sick of just sittin at home doin jack all but talk on msn and play video games.
but deep down - it's still alot of fun. haha.
fun to a point though.
it's just the point has come sooner than expected.

my bad. oh well.
c'est la vie.
moving on.
gotta find somethin else to do.
maybe i'll go for a walk - or play some guitar which i havn't done very much of.
or read a book or ride my bike.

meh. maybe i'll just play some ms. pac-man or minesweeper.
oh wait - i said i was tired didn't i...

night.

well then...

maybe that last post was mis-leading.

and maybe so is this one.

i dont even fracking know

i feel like swearing or something.
what is it about those words that makes it so good to yell out at the right time?
i dont even know.

here's another post for the few that glance over this.

well - i dont know what to frackin write about now.
i had something - but now it's gone.

i was gonna write before about the question "why are you a christian?"
and was gonna flip that around and ask "why am i NOT a chrsitian?"

dont think i want to write about that anymore.
i worked till 10pm tonight.
and i work at 7am tomorrow.
i dont mind it. better not be all the time though.

might longboard tonight.
dont know yet.

what the heck is a blog for?
if i want to talk - i'll talk.
if i knew that people actually read this junk then i'd write more.
but what would i write about?

new music i've found?
would take too long.
i just dont have time to write stuff.
that's all.

if i ever come back to this thing - which i dont think i will.
then i'll have something more intelligent to say.

until then.
well. who knows. =P

peace.

divine intelligence

woah. i havn't written here in awhile.
sorry 'bout that.

i went away for december. heh.
down to the coast.
yeah i know. i don't like the coast much - why was i down there?
right. christmas. spend the holidays with friends. (the fam doesn't do christmas).

it was amazing. was supposed to be back in the loops before the 18th.
but i rescheduled for today. the sixth. to get xrays that is.

snowed so much in abby. two n' a half feet. more than kamloops! havn't seen that ever down there.
and a white christmas at that. all around the best christmas holiday sesh ever.

so yeah. went for xrays today. and i have no more cast. no break line. no need for a splint. nothin. praise the Lord!

now i just need a job.
heh.

if you have me on facebook - there's about a hundred and twenty photos from snowcamp (oh yeah - went to gardom lake for a snowcamp sesh this last weekend - best ever. haha) - and six videos i think. check it.

i'm out.
gonna go play guitar (finally!) or something.

it makes sense

well - havn't posted in about a week.
'bout time to do some don't ya think?

here's the deal.
i got the chance to come down to the coast close to christmas.
i believe that was last thursday.
yeah - you guessed it - i saw that opportunity - and took it.

strange. i know. well - for one reason - that i don't like the coast at all.
specially at this time of year - rain, rain, rain - and kamloops has snow.
go figure.
but - it's been quite the thrill of a ride since =P

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but that is not the topic of today.
i should be sleeping - but i'll finish this little deal and be on my way.

check it - The Decemberists.
brand new music to my ears.
don't know if any of you have heard this band or not.
but i do suggest. encourage. and wish it on you.
haha.

guess you could say it's like a mix of nova scotian and irish perhaps? to me anyways.
according to wiki:

The band's songs range from upbeat pop to instrumentally lush ballads

maybe i'm wrong.
i'll let their music speak for itself.
this video. the following one. the only one in this post.
yeah - that one. haha.
mmm. it's a little morbid.
the one part is:

find him, bind him
tie him to a pole
and break his fingers to splinters
drag him to a hole
until he wakes up naked
clawing at the ceiling of his grave

the whole song is a story.
a story about a mom and her kid - some guy comes along and screws their life up - the mom goes crazy and dies (the above are her last words to her son) - and the son goes on living a life of finding revenge.

mainly. i love the musical end of it.
a twelve string guitar.
stand up bass.
violin.
mandolin.
accordian.
percussion (though not much of it).
and in this video - falling percussion instruments i believe. good effect on the song. haha.
(i may be wrong on some instruments - could be a viola)

i love story songs.
and this one - has been in my head for a week now.
enjoy:

whatever happened to the...

hey - so guess what.
yeah - that's right.
jo dyed my hair.
ok ok - so it's not such an extreme color - it's darker than before - it's just a lighter brown.
a dark golden blonde i think the package said.
still looks good - jo's such an amazing friend. =)
i think we agreed to go darker though once i get some cash on hand. heh.

speaking of hair.
1 Corinthians 11:1-16

is it wrong for me to have long hair?
honestly i dont think so.
God is more concerned about out hearts then our heads.
i firmly believe that one.
bible it more if you need to.

i do know people that take that passage too literally.
they think i've turned into a rebellious person because i've grown my hair out.

oh well.
maybe i'm just tryin to be a hippie. or just have long hair.
or that i hate having short hair.
freak - have you seen me with short hair?
guess the only time you will now is from a picture.
no thanks.
i think the only time i'll have short hair is if i give in to getting dreds.
maybe only from a bet or something. who knows.

moral of the story (for those of you that even read this): long hair. get it. keep it. cherish it. it's a wonderful thing.

oh i wish i was more of a hippie...

so. i'm gonna be blunt.
i wish i could longboard more.
be a hippie.
just ride - play guitar - and be.

or something like that.

here's a couple videos from what looks to be an awesome company.
hopefully i can buy a full board from them in the future.
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check out the rest of the Original Skateboards mini-series here ---> mini-series
also check out there website: originalskateboards.com

musings from who the heck knows where

edit: updated my testimony a bit - testimony

so.

i was thinking today - why do people blog?
no. that's not what i was thinking.
though i mainly think it's just another way of talking to yourself.
go figure. technology has our tongues as well.

today... feels like a nothing day.
practically every day since i got my cast.
i mean - don't get me wrong. there's been excitments each week.
youth. lock-ins. hanging out with jo and friends.
i just feel useless is all.

today i especially don't feel like doing anything.
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a thought. a muse.
dictionary that one later.
young adults was last night.
predestination vs. free-choice anyone?
not so hot off the platter at the moment though.

here's my simple thought:

could it be that God predestined for us to not sin and be complete with him?
but that he gave us the choice to accept or reject that destination?

sweet

wallpaper

now where were we

ah yes. i do remember now.
read a devotional of the day today. last little bit went like this:

"I would hope and pray that one day we will not look back on our lives regretfully, when we consider the potential we had to be a blessing, and we let those moments pass."

we've got to let God do with us what he wants to do.
let him guide us.
if something upsets or annoys us - think of all the blessings God has given us. heck he gave us another day to live.

should we get uptight about the little things? big things even?
if something happens and we're bothered by it... we can't really change anything about it can we? all we can change is how we react to it all.

and how we react to it - kind of shapes who we are. or is it who we are that shapes our reactions? i think it can work both ways.

life's not short. there's illusions to make it seem short.
so let's not live our lives waiting for things to come.
live our lives waiting on the Lord - yes.

be calm.
God bless.

life is as short as eternity - measure it yourself

life is short?
where do we get that from?
we think life is short only because we don't know when we're going to die?
or what is it?

you work - and even if you love your job - most people can't wait till the work day is over. i know i can't wait.
we often say "oh i can't wait till ____!"
some can't wait till christmas time. or easter. their birthday. friends birthday.
some can't wait till they're married - to grow old with someone they love.
some can't wait to go and be with the Lord even.

in all honesty - we want life to go by fast. want things to come to us faster than it is.

why then - when we turn a certain age or get to a certain point in our lives - do we say that life is short?

if you live till you're 80... that's a pretty long time.
if you live to an age where you havn't had the chance to get out in the world and live the way you do on your own... then can say that person had a short life. for them - life's short.
yeah it seems it's gone by fast sometimes.

but in the end. if life seems short. deal with it. you're how old now and i pray a child of God?
live something fancy until you go and be with our wonderous Lord.